Let's clean up he crap from last week so I can really focus this week. First, CW was off all week on shut-down and since he watches my eating habits I was even MORE conscious of my food choices. My stomach was NOT happy and rewarded me swiftly and justly.
Really sucks and is weird at the same time. I mean I'm already very aware of food and then...to be put on "super alert" was mentally (and physically) exhausting. He's back to work and so...
Of course we fought. Of course. Par for the course (day before we had people comin over for the 4th). But when he leaves his phone at home, doesn't tell me where he's going, when he'll be home and doesn't call for 9 HOURS!!! What the hell does he expect my reaction to be when he DOES meander home? Gratitude? Ass! You left me with the 3 Goobers (yeah...the ones I take care 24/7 without nary a break except errands) and don't even bother to CALL?! And HE didn't even call, he had his SISTER call!!
The stupid broad hasn't even bothered to contact us in 3 years or even see how her mom is doing an you stop in to SEE her?! WTF???!!!
And have her call me?! Dumb, dumb and dumb!!! After 16 years he should'a known that wasn't a bright idea...ANY of it!! So as soon as he walked in, I walked out and went to have a drink at a downtown bar. Not a great idea...but I never think too rationally when angry. When I got home words were said and then we got calm and started TALKING. Insecurity and mistrust are never good bed partners and unfortunately we both have that crap to muddle through. Anyway...And to top it off I manage to catch poison oak yet again this summer and this time it is really bad and hurts, itches and is REALLY gross/pus yuck.
But...this week has started of really cool. CW & I are easy with each other and are continuing to talk and actually taking some extra time to ourselves to do it. Goober #1 started Session II swimming lessons and is LOVING it. He's jumpin off the diving board which is cool and he thinks so too. I am having a slight blood increase knowing they will be taking his swim belt off but...
The other 2 Goobs have been enjoying the fresh air while waiting for lessons to be over and are lovin the swings.
I've been having trouble sleepin again more due from the fact I am more creative in the wee hours of the night and feel more sluggish come morning and during the day. But because everyone is in bed I am limited in activities so...been takin to sittin outside in the quiet of the night. What's neat about where we live is that although it's considered the "bad" part of town there are lots of homes with large yards and HUGE trees that have been here forever. They block out streetlights in our backyard and the neighborhood gets real quiet too. . So it lends to a serene setting. What has been killer though is...the MOON!! Lots of people like full moons or half moons but...this moon has been just a sliver for the past 6 days and it is...no words...So I gather my thoughts at night and prepare for the next day. I will be sad when this moon phase is over. But...new beginnings right?
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