A Glance

Now I remember why I don't keep journals...I never seem to keep up with them. Ah well... Lots been goin on with the clan so I seem to be busy with nary a moment to myself.

Last week, CW and I decided to send Goober #1 off to pre-K. Crap! When did he get older?! So I scouted local private schools and we decided on a nearby Christian school. Today I enrolled him and he was able to see the classroom. Took a while to explain to him why he couldn't start today (summer) but he's SO excited to be going. People have said I'll be sad. To be honest, I'm sad that I'm NOT sad. Not that I'm ecstatic, but I am THRILLED to see his joy. KWIM? His enthusiasm for learning is contagious and I know he will LOVE it, hence MY loving it. I figure I should enjoy it while it lasts because when he gets older...who knows how he'll feel about school. Ha! Does this mean I can "school" shop? Yeah...like I need an excuse or somethin to do THAT!!

Meanwhile the other two Goobers are well...different than #1. Miss Princess is...a handful. She has a mind of her own lately that is running smack in to mine nearly everyday. I'm just not sure what to do. I want to cultivate her independence on one hand but feel like I'm losing my mind (and temper) on the other. Tantrums are an everyday occurrence although never OUTSIDE the house. Weird. She mimics Goober #1 which is sometimes a good thing, and other times...not so much. Muddle, muddle through.

Baby Goob is WAY different. He is happy and content most times (except when wet, hungry or tired). He rolls like a roly-poly bug...all over. It's funny though to watch him sit only because he gets SO excited...he knocks himself over. Pretty funny.

On the marriage front...things are not so great. CW & I are still struggling to right the wrongs and just seems we are only managing to make more wrongs. I wonder if love is enough. I mean, I know he loves me. I know I love him. Yet we continue to hurt and mistrust each other at every turn. And in my mind you just don't do that to those you care about. I hate to walk away but I also don't want us to keep this crap up and continue rehashing old and making new wounds. I'd rather SOMETHING be left than nothing at all. I don't know. I'm so confused, and hurt, and angry and sad... Guess we will continue to work at it and see what happens.

That's all for now...gonna try and keep up on this journal a bit more. Cross fingers.

Random Thoughts

I should really try and write things down as they happen. Sometimes though, it is just impossible with 3 little ones underfoot.

My emotions have been all over the board lately and it makes me feel insane. I've been reading The Heroin Diaries by Nikki Sixx and can relate to the scattered thoughts. Only difference: he was high when he wrote his craziness and I'm not. Don't really know what is scarier here.

Right now, I have been feeling isolated. I'm with the kids all day, talk to my family & friends every so often...but I just feel all alone with my thoughts. I don't really talk to anyone, not even CW about what I'm feeling. Probably because I think he just doesn't care so I keep it to myself. How do I get out of this funk? When will this stop?

A Great Mother's Day

As some know my previous Mother's Days have well...left something to be desired. This year however CW and the Goobs really made my weekEND!!

On Saturday CW & I went out after 8 months sans the Goobers. Wow!! Actual conversation? With an adult?! And no one screamin for milk, carrots or Cheez-its?! Although while at the Japanese restaurant he did ask if I was sure we weren't home when a child a few tables away continued to cry for 15 minutes. Truthfully...I was just glad it wasn't ours. Afterward we walked the street to a store we used to frequent when we were...um..er..."younger" and I found a cute sweater that would match the new leopard pumps I just got (aside: Yes, Riki...bought 'em even with the 4" heel and all. LOVE them!!). So CW got that as part of my Mom's Day gift. As I've said before it is always nice to get out and reconnect with each other. Like a needed rain or sunshine.

On Sunday he went out (without my urging) and got breakfast (gotta grocery shop), a coffee and a newspaper. Miss Thing gave me a rose, Bubs gave me a mug that he colored and Wee One gave me his best toothless grin. See? I KNEW they just saved their horns for other days. lol And CW gave me a charm bracelet with the Goobers' initals on each locket.

Sometimes they can really throw me off guard. I love when they do! They are awesome!! And I really love them all. Thank you for making this Mother's Day the best ever!!

One For Momma

Since having 3 Goobs pretty close in age I’ve been, well, quite down on myself physically. But it seemed everyone lately had been saying how good I looked...blah, blah...so today I decided to test their observations. I did this the same 2 ways I did pre-Goober 1 when I dropped weight. I put on CW’s 30/30s and try on the dress I bought in SF on Haight. If they fit? I’m pretty happy. Means I’m on track.

So...I first tried on a pair of CW’s Levi 505s. Aww...yea they fit! Probably coulda tried his 29/30s but...let’s not get too overconfident. So then I headed for the dress. Ugh! This thing reads size 5. Sigh. I thought, "Ya know I’ve worn this dress twice. Once when I bought it and once before Goober 1. How depressing." HA!!! The Sucker fits!! So while I still want to lose another 9 pounds I gotta say I am THRILLED to have dropped 45 in 5 months. Yea!!

The Crayon Case

Exhibit A


Exhibit B


Exhibit C

On a late Saturday afternoon Exhibit A placed Exhibit C foreign body up Exhibit B. Due to the nature and placement of said foreign body Exhibit A was taken to a local hospital. After an over 2 hour wait, a doctor removed Exhibit C from Exhibit A’s Exhibit B with a pair of long tweezers. Although the jury is still perplexed as to the reason behind such an act...they are glad however that his accomplice did not imitate him in this endeavor.

Accomplice

A Moment

Wow! It’s been forever since I’ve been on here or even posted anything so...

I’m one of those people that needs to always be "doing" something (can still hear that man naggin me in my head...) but then I end up starting several projects and am endlessly busy (hence why I have not been online). I complain, feel rushed and race around. Then when I get back to the dullness of the everyday because I have finished all my projects? I feel bummed. So here’s a recap of the past few weeks while I have not many things goin on for those interested. And for those who aren’t? Move on! Ya really don’t have to read this stuff ya know.

Hubs has been workin lots and well...I’m a missin the boy. Seems we quickly say everything in a few hours and off he goes to bed to get rested for another day. I know we decided this is what we would do for the kids but...Speaking of Goobers...

Daniel has takin up photography in the past week (the home page pic is ala Daniel). Heehee...Thanks to all the people who had a hand in creating the digital camera!! No wasted film. But do not fear oh those who hope he follows Daddy’s musical ear and love. The child still keeps askin me for a yellow electric guitar. I don’t think any of us need to worry he will be swapping either interest anytime soon.

Rebekah is...geez...becoming a Princess with a Queen attitude. And the girl already knows how to bat those baby blues at the boys. Oh dear! But of course her first real love is Daddy. And I’m thinkin when she’s ready...she’ll be askin for a drum set since banging a fork and a spoon on the table will probably become boring soon.

Michael is way too cute. He is a smilin, happy boy who lights up when he sees those he loves. Makes ya feel like you are the ONLY one he adores. He just started solids but still prefers belling up to the Milk Bar instead.

And me? I’ve been busy making Lil Miss outfits for spring/summer. In fact, I just sold a lot of her clothes and I’m not sure what hurt more. Seeing all the stuff I spent hours shoppin for before she was born go or the stuff I had made her go. But movin on...If ya wanna see the stuff I’ve done so far you can go into the "Finished crafts" folder. I have a few more things I wanna make her...okay...I have ALOT of things I wanna make her but right now I am working on reconstructing t-shirts for me. Weird to buy XL shirts after losing 40+ lbs only to make them smaller but...and working on re-learning to crochet. Think I got it except for the hdst.

So that’s it pretty much in compressed form what has been goin on besides the same old errand runnin, grocery shoppin, diaper changin, Goober feedin stuff. Aren’t ya glad I filled ya in? YAWN!!

Anita Renfroe on Bananas...Don't Breathe

Good Morning!!!

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