So Much..Yet So Little

Where did the school year go? So much has happened but either I haven't felt like writing, forgot to write or simply didn't care. So much for trying to keep "on top of things". Where do I start? The good stuff? The bad stuff? Or all the stuff in between? Jeeze! Who knows?! Let's begin somewhere...

My brother was severely injured in a work related accident in October of 2009, my father was diagnosed with Stage 4 cancer in April of 2010, my husband's job situation is still crappy (yeah...1/3 the pay but still the same amount of bills), sleepless nights over a violent act a street over from us, my husband recently being injured at work and now the children are currently sick. On top of trying to understand people who complain over the minor of things. Some days I have wanted to crawl under a rock at the bottom of the ocean but...God reminds me of what I have and what we have been blessed with.

We have a son who has finished kindergarten with a wonderful knowledge base and a reading level above the 1st grade. A daughter who is learning so much daily. The littlest who is jibbering on and on when we wondered if he'd EVER utter a word. My brother survived his injury despite losing a limb. My father who had lost his way in his faith walk is once again realizing God IS. Sure times are tight and we struggle but we have managed to keep our home, pay off our cars and keep food on the table. He has shown me that violence happens but that it allows me to be more aware and conscious of Life itself. That prayers of safety do not go unheard , otherwise my husband would not have moved that 550lb mold and survived to come home to us. He has reminded me that children get sick and that my prayers for their health are heard but time must be taken to ensure a full recovery.

This year has taught me that life is precious and SO often I get caught up in all the "little" things that I forget that this is only a temporary place. A way station. It was created by a Father who doesn't want to "hurt" me. He wants to mold me. He doesn't want me to "suffer". He wants me to learn and grow. Too bad I tend to be a very slow and methodical learner huh?However, I AM grateful for all we have been blessed with and while sometimes the little Envy Monster pops up...I wouldn't change what I have learned these last couple months.