Elephant or Baby?

Okay...bit worried here after the ultrasound done this week. It was basically to check and see if I was gonna need a C-section. WooHoo! No section here. Everything is good with Jellybean except...

Apparently he is measuring on the "big" side. Big as in, he is comin in at 33 weeks(now 34) instead of the 31 weeks (now 32) I am, he is a hefty 4lbs 9oz (DS was only 6lb8oz and DD was 6lb14oz) and he is in the 65th percentile!! Jeeze!! (at least I REALLY know HE'S gaining and not me) Now many know I'm not a tall or big woman so squeezin out anything over what DD weighed is just...well downright scary (that's me over there tryin to hide)!! Although...the good thing is he is already head down, which is early, so perhaps he will make an early appearance. Here's hoping. Because ya'll need to bring me some whiskey to drink after this pregnancy (and some of ya know why)!!

Call Of The Potty

Before our first child was born, my husband and I discussed MANY things: about how to raise him, how to school him, cloth vs. disposable and on and on. Among them was what we would refer to his private parts as. Neither of us thought the use of: pee-pee, tinkle, winky, blah, blah, blah were good choices. We believed (and still do) that he should know the correct anatomical names for his body parts, so penis it was and is! Then we had our daughter. Hmm…were we still gonna hold to this previous thought? Yep! So labia it was and still is! Now do not argue with us, labia vs. vagina (one is external, one internal) go argue on one of those websites about this issue. And yes, there ARE people who argue over this. Good grief!!! Anyway…

All this leads to what happens when the potty training begins. For experienced Mommas they know all too well. For the non-experienced…you MAY want to rethink your strategies unless you are not easily embarrassed when you hear a child screech things in the loudest voice possible.

Potty training and what you have chosen to have them call their body parts WILL inevitably end up shouted across a crowded store, whispered loudly in Church or, heck, just about anywhere when they have to go to the restroom…or simply feel the need to share what they are thinking at the time. It can be a source of humor and sometimes embarrassment. But it will also elicit scornful looks of "Know-It-All Moms" (AKA: those who have no kids or have yet to hit the potty training timetable) and knowing nods and smirks from Moms who have been there before and are SO glad to be done with it all.

We have once again begun the potty training thing with our son who will tell just about everyone about his "peanut". That he has one and so does Daddy but not Mommy or Sissy. Ahh…they begin SO young with that fixation girls. Now our daughter wants to start using the potty and hearing her say labia? Well, funny AND creepy to be honest.

While both seem to want to share this accurate, and dare I say; pretty-smart-for-their-age knowledge of their body with others I can't help but wonder if my husband & I really should have tried yelling these words to each other across a store to see the reaction of others prior to our children doing it. Yet, I don't think it would have garnered the same stares shouted by 30-some year olds as it does 3 year and 19 month old children. But MAN! That would have been funny!

And Again...

I am so angry, sad and well...just tired of stuff that I think is dead ressurecting itself over and over. It is draining and boring. I wonder why people who know thier behavior or actions hurt would resume those same behaviors or actions. Perhaps I am dumb. Perhaps I am hoping for too much from others. People say they are doing one thing only for you to find out that... or someone apologizes and says it won't happen again and there they go...down that same road (kids are notorious for this BTW). Turning to another person instead of the one you should be turning to is not acceptable. If you want out of a relationship (marriage/friendship/whatever) why not just go? Why drag things out? I would rather you own up to crap than continue to lie.

So now what? I feel so overwhelmed considering I'm pregnant, have 2 little ones and gotta deal with this too. If I could runaway I would but...obviously that is not feasible.

What I do know is I thought things were being put to rest and yet...here we are all over. I feel like I am caught in a windstorm and being beat to heck. I'm just so tired. So tired.

Freakin Out

I am freaking out lately over stuff I have no control over and it drives me nuts! I should know what to expect considering this is our 3rd Goober in less than 3 1/2 years but...

I find myself thinking, "How the heck am I gonna DO this?!" DH is only gonna be home for about a week to help and then back to 14+ hour days, winter will be coming which means less ability to get out of the house, 2 toddlers & a newborn and ME cooped up for days, DS still refusing the potty, DD getting READY to start potty training, grocery shopping with 3... And on and on. Then DH says, "You really don't want anymore?" 'Kay, I know he is HALF kidding here; it's the other half that's scares me.

I know God's timing is perfect. I do. I know for everything there is a season (Eccleciastes 3:1 and please do NOT break out in song or even Eccleciastes 3:11). But crud! I feel like my body is getting ready for Fall and my mind is already in Winter!! Although good thing my Spirit is more in Summer (there's a plus). And while that may not seem like a bad thing to some...for me it is frustrating. I know this is an overreaction (hormonally induced or not) and that when actually FACED with everything it will all work out with God's help; but the ever present controlling side of me that wants to ALWAYS control the uncontrolable? Not an easy task. Ahh...well...Psalm 27:14 says, "Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD." So...I wait.